I hadn't seen her for years.
She was still....a Goddess.
When you are first trying to get over someone. You hope that the next time you seen them they will look horrible or be unhappy. It Selfish I know, even sad, but you let those thoughts manifest in your head. Still, there she was across from me, glowing as if a spotlight followed her around. In a few moments she would see me, in a few moment I would know if she still.. Nevermind.
"The Eye is the gateway to our soul." That is what crossed my mind and also is it eye? or Eyes? I don't know. All I knew was that the moment our eyes meet I'll know.
I thought about pretending not to see her, but I love her. I told her years ago that my eyes are always searching for her.
How the hell could I look away now?
It doesn't matter, there is no way she could be single. I bet the man beside her is her husband or Companion. They look great together, I bet they have beautiful babies.
Does she have kids?
When we were together, I use to dream about a cute little chubby boy with jet black hair, and her eyes.
Shut up and get this over with.
Everything gets brighter. I am living IN time.
Either this is a magic moment, or am going to faint. She notices me. All of a sudden it's half a decade ago, and I am opening up a door about to meet a girl coming from Yoga class. She's here to pick up a book from my New Age roomie about becoming a Vegan.
I feel like I am staring.
Cause I am
But so is she.
Before anyone says a word we are in love again.
Did we even stop?
If I where to say this to her she would call it corny, but it's what she loves about me.
I am trying to Vocalize a word that sounds like a greeting, but before I get a chance to put my foot in my mouth she says, "Hi."
This time I hope there wont be a Goodbye.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
What if I changed for you?
You.
Are going to Change.
Thank you for Reading. :)
At 25 I had a full head of thick black hair. At 26 I was Balding. I changed.
Of course at the time I cursed the heavens and said, " Why me God?!"
You see I love my hair, as all balding men would say, but I REALLY loved my head full of hair. I would sit at home and stroke my fingers through it for hours, in fact it was one of my favorite pass times. I cut it in every way possible, I had a mullet, I put streaks in it, I even tried to grow it out several times. Of course I'm not writing about me losing my hair. I m talking about change.
I have questions this time, to ponder.
Why are we afraid to change? Why would you ever want things to stay the same?
Sure I get it, there are these fantastic moments in our lives where we are the embodiment of happiness and bliss, but what makes us think it won't happen again?
Why does getting old mean you can't change?
Have you heard this one? "I'm to old for that." What are you to old for? Living?
Or if I was younger, or not married or single or insert any excuse you can think of.
Stop limiting yourself.
Why can't someone we love change? The moment we attach expectations on anyone we love, we are asking them to fail. Also do you actually fail at love if a realtionship fails?
I mean after trying and trying isn't it better to say I love you, may you continue to grow,then saying I gave you 20 plus years of my life and what do I have to show for it? Or any other hurtful words we can think of because we didn't want to change ourseleves or let anyone change around us.
Also Change for you. If one day you liked Hip Hop music and 5 years later it's Bach or Bust and someone goes, "What happend to you?" Just say you got better. Because you can!!
Caterpillar are Awesome cute creatures but guess what happens to a Caterpillar?
Ask yourself
Do you wish to be right or happy in life?
If you are questioning what I mean about "Right" then you will most likely question what it is to be happy. Believe me you can be 'right" in life but still end up unhappy and unfullied but at least you will be right.
If you live a happy life you are not pursuing happniess you are experiencing life.
Huge difference. You are not looking to the next thing to make you happy. You simply are happy.
Of course questions like these are always fun to talk about. So when next we meet lets chat.
Still, You and everything around you will change.
Thank you for Reading.
Learn. Live. Love.
Are going to Change.
Thank you for Reading. :)
At 25 I had a full head of thick black hair. At 26 I was Balding. I changed.
Of course at the time I cursed the heavens and said, " Why me God?!"
You see I love my hair, as all balding men would say, but I REALLY loved my head full of hair. I would sit at home and stroke my fingers through it for hours, in fact it was one of my favorite pass times. I cut it in every way possible, I had a mullet, I put streaks in it, I even tried to grow it out several times. Of course I'm not writing about me losing my hair. I m talking about change.
I have questions this time, to ponder.
Why are we afraid to change? Why would you ever want things to stay the same?
Sure I get it, there are these fantastic moments in our lives where we are the embodiment of happiness and bliss, but what makes us think it won't happen again?
Why does getting old mean you can't change?
Have you heard this one? "I'm to old for that." What are you to old for? Living?
Or if I was younger, or not married or single or insert any excuse you can think of.
Stop limiting yourself.
Why can't someone we love change? The moment we attach expectations on anyone we love, we are asking them to fail. Also do you actually fail at love if a realtionship fails?
I mean after trying and trying isn't it better to say I love you, may you continue to grow,then saying I gave you 20 plus years of my life and what do I have to show for it? Or any other hurtful words we can think of because we didn't want to change ourseleves or let anyone change around us.
Also Change for you. If one day you liked Hip Hop music and 5 years later it's Bach or Bust and someone goes, "What happend to you?" Just say you got better. Because you can!!
Caterpillar are Awesome cute creatures but guess what happens to a Caterpillar?
Ask yourself
Do you wish to be right or happy in life?
If you are questioning what I mean about "Right" then you will most likely question what it is to be happy. Believe me you can be 'right" in life but still end up unhappy and unfullied but at least you will be right.
If you live a happy life you are not pursuing happniess you are experiencing life.
Huge difference. You are not looking to the next thing to make you happy. You simply are happy.
Of course questions like these are always fun to talk about. So when next we meet lets chat.
Still, You and everything around you will change.
Thank you for Reading.
Learn. Live. Love.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
I Can't Believe I EVER dated you.
"I Can't believe I ever dated him."
This, is what I over heard on the Skytrain the other day on my way to work. Immersed in The Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut, this one little sentence manage to pull me out of some great fiction. I continued to listen as the Woman went on to list all the things this man "she was to good for" lacked.
This list was very extensive.
Still it got me thinking and I came to the realization that I have had many people in my life, including myself, use this line or some variation of it.
"I can't believe I dated her/where friends/where together?" You can add the ever popular "what was I thinking?" to the mix.
I had to understand why I would ever open my mouth and say any of these silly lines. It was time for me to take responsibility. I have said to many of my friends, and mentioned it a few times in my Blog that the world is a reflection of you. You are at the very lest a Co-create on this wonderful journey you have chosen, so you must honor your choices. Take a moment and think about all of your relationships regardless of whatever state they are in. Now accept to yourself that you have made these choices, all of them, and BELIEVE in them. Now some people may say, wait I didn't choice to be given up on, or used, or cheated on, or any other negative situation or circumstance you can think of. However in some weird way you did. You needed to learn. You had to grow. These people that we end up becoming "to good for" in essence are very much us. IF you sit and think about you and who you were 5 or 10 years ago you will clearly be different and if you go " I can't believe.. blah blah blah" Shut your mouth and respect yourself. Believe you have grown and Believe where that growth came from. These lovely people that you became "to good for" did nothing that you can not over come. Don't let fear and hate stop you. When you list there short comings remember that some of the qualities exist in you or did at one point in time.
And if by chance you are the one who let someone down, broke a heart, took someone for granted. Accept your choices and thank you for hurting someone, thank you for hurting yourself. Those people were and are the great aspects of you, that you were not ready for. So you hurt yourself by hurting them. I personally forgive anyone who has done this to me and ask for forgiveness if I have done any harm to anyone.
We all are good enough and can all become better. And for those still looking for there great soul mate or love to complete them (which is entirely different blog) I say, The best relationships you can have is with yourself first and when you love you. The world will say to you in many voices or in one. I love you too. Now that is something you should Believe.
This, is what I over heard on the Skytrain the other day on my way to work. Immersed in The Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut, this one little sentence manage to pull me out of some great fiction. I continued to listen as the Woman went on to list all the things this man "she was to good for" lacked.
This list was very extensive.
Still it got me thinking and I came to the realization that I have had many people in my life, including myself, use this line or some variation of it.
"I can't believe I dated her/where friends/where together?" You can add the ever popular "what was I thinking?" to the mix.
I had to understand why I would ever open my mouth and say any of these silly lines. It was time for me to take responsibility. I have said to many of my friends, and mentioned it a few times in my Blog that the world is a reflection of you. You are at the very lest a Co-create on this wonderful journey you have chosen, so you must honor your choices. Take a moment and think about all of your relationships regardless of whatever state they are in. Now accept to yourself that you have made these choices, all of them, and BELIEVE in them. Now some people may say, wait I didn't choice to be given up on, or used, or cheated on, or any other negative situation or circumstance you can think of. However in some weird way you did. You needed to learn. You had to grow. These people that we end up becoming "to good for" in essence are very much us. IF you sit and think about you and who you were 5 or 10 years ago you will clearly be different and if you go " I can't believe.. blah blah blah" Shut your mouth and respect yourself. Believe you have grown and Believe where that growth came from. These lovely people that you became "to good for" did nothing that you can not over come. Don't let fear and hate stop you. When you list there short comings remember that some of the qualities exist in you or did at one point in time.
And if by chance you are the one who let someone down, broke a heart, took someone for granted. Accept your choices and thank you for hurting someone, thank you for hurting yourself. Those people were and are the great aspects of you, that you were not ready for. So you hurt yourself by hurting them. I personally forgive anyone who has done this to me and ask for forgiveness if I have done any harm to anyone.
We all are good enough and can all become better. And for those still looking for there great soul mate or love to complete them (which is entirely different blog) I say, The best relationships you can have is with yourself first and when you love you. The world will say to you in many voices or in one. I love you too. Now that is something you should Believe.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
All I do is Party?
As I walked down Granville Street last night completely sober and foolishly acting all high and mighty.
I started to think about Drugs. I looked around at the Men and Women or Boys and Girls. I mean Reaaally looked at them. Some of them where clearly smashed out of there minds. I saw a very many girls either sitting on a bench or leaning on a lamp post drinking water trying to keep there shit together(so many dresses ruined). Men or Boys with that dear in head lights look, and lets not forget the Men who become the incredible Hulk when they drink. Then there are all the lovers new and old holding on to each other. The Boys with that look of, "I'm so going to get laid tonight" The Girls thinkin," I hope he likes me, or I really just wanna eat my pizza and go to bed"
As I walk to the Roxy (your read correctly) looking around I almost made the mistake of thinking I was better then everyone. Then I told my Ego to Shut the hell up.
Again I started to think about Drugs, Alcohol being the main one, and I realized that everyone around me is being exactly who they really are... in a way.
When I first started drinking I was told you drink to loosen up, to grow some balls to hit on that women that your Ego says is out of your league. To have Fun!!
However, it has become more apparent to me that we take Drugs such as Alcohol, Cannabis, Mushrooms, MDMA, DMT not to have fun but to shut down our Ego.
That voice that says you can't do that, or She/He is to good for you, that's not you, and basically anything else you say to yourself to hold yourself back.
Of course because we live in an Age of Abundance. Everything is Accessible and we over do it. We depend on these gifts from the earth and begin to hinder our own gifts within us. Yup, came to the realization on Granville St.
I'm not going to be silly and say don't do Drugs etc, but I will say you must learn to honor yourself. Yes maybe you need to over do it to learn, but respect yourself and learn. If you do drink or take drugs understand it only enhances what you already have. It's not the 12 shots or pills or joint or anything that made you have fun last night. It was you. You pushed through your Ego and found your true essence, but that awesome You already lives inside you. You don't need to be drugged up all the time to find yourself or take copious amounts of anything to be you. IF you think everyone does it and you should to. Well, everyone does it because you do. (think about it)
Also any Drug (Medicine) that comes from the Earth has far more power then we allow ourselves to believe. They are not simply for Fun. You should learn to honor them because they can teach you how to be Awesome all the time. Without reaching for that extra drink. So the next time you are out and you feel really good let yourself be in that moment don't push it. Ask yourself is this Me? Believe me I have partied, in many cases in life I am the Party, but the greatest nights of my life I remember.
Learn. Live. Love.
I started to think about Drugs. I looked around at the Men and Women or Boys and Girls. I mean Reaaally looked at them. Some of them where clearly smashed out of there minds. I saw a very many girls either sitting on a bench or leaning on a lamp post drinking water trying to keep there shit together(so many dresses ruined). Men or Boys with that dear in head lights look, and lets not forget the Men who become the incredible Hulk when they drink. Then there are all the lovers new and old holding on to each other. The Boys with that look of, "I'm so going to get laid tonight" The Girls thinkin," I hope he likes me, or I really just wanna eat my pizza and go to bed"
As I walk to the Roxy (your read correctly) looking around I almost made the mistake of thinking I was better then everyone. Then I told my Ego to Shut the hell up.
Again I started to think about Drugs, Alcohol being the main one, and I realized that everyone around me is being exactly who they really are... in a way.
When I first started drinking I was told you drink to loosen up, to grow some balls to hit on that women that your Ego says is out of your league. To have Fun!!
However, it has become more apparent to me that we take Drugs such as Alcohol, Cannabis, Mushrooms, MDMA, DMT not to have fun but to shut down our Ego.
That voice that says you can't do that, or She/He is to good for you, that's not you, and basically anything else you say to yourself to hold yourself back.
Of course because we live in an Age of Abundance. Everything is Accessible and we over do it. We depend on these gifts from the earth and begin to hinder our own gifts within us. Yup, came to the realization on Granville St.
I'm not going to be silly and say don't do Drugs etc, but I will say you must learn to honor yourself. Yes maybe you need to over do it to learn, but respect yourself and learn. If you do drink or take drugs understand it only enhances what you already have. It's not the 12 shots or pills or joint or anything that made you have fun last night. It was you. You pushed through your Ego and found your true essence, but that awesome You already lives inside you. You don't need to be drugged up all the time to find yourself or take copious amounts of anything to be you. IF you think everyone does it and you should to. Well, everyone does it because you do. (think about it)
Also any Drug (Medicine) that comes from the Earth has far more power then we allow ourselves to believe. They are not simply for Fun. You should learn to honor them because they can teach you how to be Awesome all the time. Without reaching for that extra drink. So the next time you are out and you feel really good let yourself be in that moment don't push it. Ask yourself is this Me? Believe me I have partied, in many cases in life I am the Party, but the greatest nights of my life I remember.
Learn. Live. Love.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Note of Thanks
Thank you to everyone who has been reading for the past month.
I have had a few choice words and put up some Poetry, but in the next month I will be changing it up. For the Past three Months through Meditation I have come up with a few questions and opinions. If we have hung out in that time then you are already aware of them. Many of them are very much part of the 12 Universal truths. Obviously they come from a very spiritual place and if you have firm ideals or beliefs they may Challenge you. Trust that all I am doing is helping myself further my own spiritual understanding and that anything I say comes from a place of Unconditional Love.
Learn. Live. LOVE.
I have had a few choice words and put up some Poetry, but in the next month I will be changing it up. For the Past three Months through Meditation I have come up with a few questions and opinions. If we have hung out in that time then you are already aware of them. Many of them are very much part of the 12 Universal truths. Obviously they come from a very spiritual place and if you have firm ideals or beliefs they may Challenge you. Trust that all I am doing is helping myself further my own spiritual understanding and that anything I say comes from a place of Unconditional Love.
Learn. Live. LOVE.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Pieces of Mr Munish's: The Saga continues...
This city was big with it's Buildings and Sky trains, now it's so small I can't escape the material pains. A young green man with master plans has grown into a sage who understands his mortal ways. Human beings tell me I care to much try
Make me wonder why I should give a fuck.
I love so much
I love so much
Soldiers tell me that I should not fuss
Still this warrior of the light battles on
Listening to the song of his cosmic all.
*******
Dear Innocent Boys
Never stop loving.
Even when she breaks your heart don't stop believing in love. Your going to question why, going to hurt more then you ever thought you could, but don't make others pay. Don't hold back. You are going to want to, you are going to want to be right, but choose to be Happy. Because even if you are right you can still feel crappy. Be the best you can be, don't question what if she'll leave me? If you gave your best, there is no such things as tests. Love to your limit and push through it, cause even when it hurts, you will realize your worth. And when you grow and become a man it will be a woman who holds your hand.
(This is true for the innocent Girls as well)
*****
No more words of Pain, my heart won't let me.
No need to dwell on how one can be wronged, it is a sad forgettable song.
Life has it's lessons and some of us don't listen. So we get stuck on repeat making easy lessons large feats.
No more complaining and goodness saking. Our lives should be filled with purpose not deconstructing what hurt is.
I have a divine love inside me, healing the world with my goddess beside me.
*****
He paces back and forth with an inferno that rises inside him.
Visceral sounds escape his breath
His scale like skin a fiery red.
Like the God Shiva he wants to set the world a blaze, torch it to a crisp so new life can exist
He is no Mythical creature still he is born of holy ether.
He is only a being of purpose on a journey to find what is worth is.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Cosmic Inceptions. Continuation of Elevation.
For anyone who doesn't know me or has not seen me in a while.
I have begun my second spiritual journey, don't get me wrong I believe that I am in/on one great magical and amazing cosmic Journey, but there are moments in your life when things stick out and you know that life simply can not go back to how is was. The first time this happen to me I was nearing the end of my twenty second year. I was introduced to some wonderful gifts. Edgar Cayce, the Bhagavad Gita, and chanting. It was when I begin to realized that maybe the outside world is a reflection of my internal world, that if I believe I have a soul, I should let my soul shine through for that is the strongest and purest part of me. These few but very important realization began to change my life. I changed majors in University, I began doing what makes me happy. Of course being only in my early/mid twenties I was still very attached to outcomes and expectations so only allowed myself to learn a few lesson. I mean come on, I'm in my mid 20's, I wanna party, hang out with friends, chase girls, and LIVE! So I continued with my life becoming better, but not great. But now my Cosmic lovers, brothers and sisters I am picking up where I left off. Much of what I will share will have a common theme, but it is no matter.
Live. Learn. LOVE.
Confusion
Confusion in Illusion is time consuming.
When you live life in pain,
How can one not feel insane?
Placing your life in emotional categories
Is how you live a Tragic story
Anger, Pain, Feeling Betrayed
Believing in these words will lead your life astray
Finding purpose in life may seem "hard"
But if you learn to love unconditionally
You will be free of any misery.
Angel
My Sweet little Angel know I love you
At times it will feel life only offers burden
Accept it's a gift
You can do whatever you wish with it
You may feel stuck in the mud
I will be there to rescue you my love
In our constant Journey we call life
The divine Mother give us what we call Strife
She does this not give us pain but to help elevate us to a higher plain
My Sweet little Angel do not fear any dark,
always embrace the light in your heart
And by chance you are ever stuck in the grey
You can depend on my love to help guide the way.
Soulful love of mine
We do not exist in time
Our love is connected forever
Both of us know there is no other
This Divine connection only has one Shape
It is you my mate
Love me my Goddess
It seems so foolish to ask
All I will ever do is love you back.
Great love
She holds him close before she lets him go
Her Prince has Chosen a sacrifical road
His divine Mother and Father look upon him.
It will be Eons before he returns to them.
With one last embrace he lets his love go
Falling into an infinite cosmic black hole
Giving his grace for the sake of creation
Driven only with the knowing she loves him.
Lion
He roams the Savannah looking at the stars
Knowing he has come from so far
He roars to a distant galaxy
She is prying come back to me
This King has chosen his Destiny
He loves her that's all that matters
For now however he must roam the Savannah
You are the meaning of my creation
The Goddess who tames me
I have begun my second spiritual journey, don't get me wrong I believe that I am in/on one great magical and amazing cosmic Journey, but there are moments in your life when things stick out and you know that life simply can not go back to how is was. The first time this happen to me I was nearing the end of my twenty second year. I was introduced to some wonderful gifts. Edgar Cayce, the Bhagavad Gita, and chanting. It was when I begin to realized that maybe the outside world is a reflection of my internal world, that if I believe I have a soul, I should let my soul shine through for that is the strongest and purest part of me. These few but very important realization began to change my life. I changed majors in University, I began doing what makes me happy. Of course being only in my early/mid twenties I was still very attached to outcomes and expectations so only allowed myself to learn a few lesson. I mean come on, I'm in my mid 20's, I wanna party, hang out with friends, chase girls, and LIVE! So I continued with my life becoming better, but not great. But now my Cosmic lovers, brothers and sisters I am picking up where I left off. Much of what I will share will have a common theme, but it is no matter.
Live. Learn. LOVE.
Confusion
Confusion in Illusion is time consuming.
When you live life in pain,
How can one not feel insane?
Placing your life in emotional categories
Is how you live a Tragic story
Anger, Pain, Feeling Betrayed
Believing in these words will lead your life astray
Finding purpose in life may seem "hard"
But if you learn to love unconditionally
You will be free of any misery.
Angel
My Sweet little Angel know I love you
At times it will feel life only offers burden
Accept it's a gift
You can do whatever you wish with it
You may feel stuck in the mud
I will be there to rescue you my love
In our constant Journey we call life
The divine Mother give us what we call Strife
She does this not give us pain but to help elevate us to a higher plain
My Sweet little Angel do not fear any dark,
always embrace the light in your heart
And by chance you are ever stuck in the grey
You can depend on my love to help guide the way.
Soulful love of mine
We do not exist in time
Our love is connected forever
Both of us know there is no other
This Divine connection only has one Shape
It is you my mate
Love me my Goddess
It seems so foolish to ask
All I will ever do is love you back.
Great love
She holds him close before she lets him go
Her Prince has Chosen a sacrifical road
His divine Mother and Father look upon him.
It will be Eons before he returns to them.
With one last embrace he lets his love go
Falling into an infinite cosmic black hole
Giving his grace for the sake of creation
Driven only with the knowing she loves him.
Lion
He roams the Savannah looking at the stars
Knowing he has come from so far
He roars to a distant galaxy
She is prying come back to me
This King has chosen his Destiny
He loves her that's all that matters
For now however he must roam the Savannah
You are the meaning of my creation
The Goddess who tames me
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