Ravaged

Ravaged
By Munish Sharma
Edited by Liam Ford


Some love cannot pass the test of fate
It is too fragile, it cannot bear the weight.
Yet love is given birth by hope
And like a mother to a child it nourishes its growth.
So we begin to dream and in those dreams
We see things that might come to be;
Moments under the moonlight, kisses in the rain,
Or when they say, “I have never felt this way…”
However to find true love,
One must be willing to fall.
Reality, the unflinching father,
Tests us to see what our love can battle.
And if by chance you fall,
You start to question what it means to you at all.
So we emote feelings once love is lost,
To learn what we can from the pain.
I too loved someone.
I loved them more
Than I could ever admit.
A love so strong
That it made me sick.
I loved someone.
But this is not that story,
But of how that lost love transformed me.
Wake… wake… Hear the river flow.
Wake… wake… Feel the breeze blow.
Wake… wake… Hear the birds sing.
Wake… wake… It is time to begin.
I have run all the way back to the start,
To the place where you first touched my heart.
The beauty of the place remains the same,
But the aura has changed.
It is no longer ours…
Maybe it never was?
The pillar-like trees,
That seem to hold up the sky,
The crystal clear stream
That showed our dreams,
The calm breeze
That brought my heart ease,
And all the priceless poetry
That made my heart dance for thee…
That life has spent its last breath,
And now there is nothing left.
So here I lie, wishing for life to drift away,
Deep into the stream that once held our dreams.
Oh, how I wish I were blind, for I cannot
Remove you from my sight.
Your parting has ravaged the endless sky,
Plundered the fertile earth, sucked the river dry...
And all you did is say goodbye.
You have left me like this.
The same energy you used to whisk me away
Has now made me want to throw my life away.
I do not want to bear this separation;
I wish I did not care for this situation.
This heavy heart of mine attracts gravity in another way.
It is no longer open to the sky,
The tears in my eyes stop me
From holding my head up high.
This heavenly place is where our love should have grown,
But now it will forever remind me that you are not my own.
The birds’ songs have begun to sound like hideous cackles,
The odour of the earth has become decrepit and foul,
And from a distance evil begins to howl.
The darkness creeps
And soon it will consume me,
It will slither in to my soul
And devour my heart whole.
My body is seething
Like a demonic being.
I have been poisoned by your love,
And although I have stopped it
From entering my veins,
Much of it still remains.
I beg for the end,
For I feel the darkness coming in.
Shhh...
The enemy speaks,
The enemy deep
Inside of me.
My dear girl
Give me your will
Let me taste
The nectar of your ill.
It is your own fault
You feel this way.
Who told you
Love is great?
Let me show you
What really matters
Let your body succumb
To lustful desires.
Drink the juice of lust,
What good is in living
So virtuous?
Let me tell you
The one thing
That is true:
No one will
Ever love you.
Let these words
Creep into your soul
And there create
A gaping hole.
It must be me… It’s not true
There is something wrong with me… It's not true
It is true.
No one will ever
Love me.
No one
Will ever
Love
Me.
From a distance
There is a glimmer,
So faint at first,
That believing in it
Makes me feel worse.
Maybe there is more to me than you,
But the glimmer grows stronger
And starts to stay longer;
I will be stronger.
It slides its way through the dark.
Could it be here to mend my heart?
In love there are goodbyes.
Fragile things should never be cherished,
For one day they too will perish.
One crushing defeat after another,
Oh, the things we will do for a lover.
We will change our whole scope on life
To make things right. We will forget
What we refuse to give up,
For a warm and soothing touch.
And in the end we may part;
Do I choose to stay in the dark?
Look at me in my melancholy sadness;
I finally understand what my internal wrath is.
The darkness in my heart
Tries to rip me limb from limb.
This is the prison heartbreak condemns me in.
The evil in my mind tries to torture me at times,
But something has begun to change.
Maybe things are better this way?
Love is like an infant child.
There is so much work to be done,
So much time needed to grow.
Love needs to crawl before it can walk.
Love is four letters, it takes four strokes to pen,
But it may take four lifetimes to comprehend.
Our love may have past,
But that does not mean
Love does not last.
I can blame the world
For my misfortune
Or I can love again.
I can believe that no one will love me
Or I can believe it all starts with loving me.
I can spend my life waiting for an unspoken moment
Or I could let the moment speak.
To the untrained eye, I am still the same,
But who can rejoice in pleasure without pain?
Look a little deeper, past the flesh,
Realize that it does not do me justice.
Love is something
We mortals should not resist.
Yet there is much more to love
Than romantic consequence.

The Jeans and T-Shirts Sage

The Jeans and T-shirt sage sits in front of me.
Drinking his Desi Whiskey, while the smoke of his cigarette dances around his face.

"I have been waiting for you for a year."
Somewhere in the hill/mountain region of Northern India, a man I have never met before not only knows me, but has been waiting to see me. I want to be skeptical.

"Yeah right buddy."
" No you haven't you lair. Stop lying!"
" Shut your mouth."
I want to be Skeptical, I didn't want to believe him....but I now it's true.
For the rest of the day this normal everyday looking man is telling me about my life.
Not a vague horoscope description or half ass Psychic interpretation but actual events.
There is Magic in India. There is Magic in the World.
This isn't a life changing experience, this is a life realization experience.
I didn't need to get high on any drug or drink to feel some kind of connection. I am not telling you about some kind of drug trip where my eyes have been opened.
I will say that to all of you who believe there is something more to life, wished there was magic in the world,or thought that there is more to life then how much you weigh or what you look like.
I am telling you there is...... and I have seen it with my human eyes.
These same eyes that watch movies and look to see how fake the CGI is. The same eyes that have stupidly judged beauty based on what is shown to me on TV. These human eyes finally saw something Divine. My Soul has always told me that yes, there is so much more then who wins the Super Bowl (Don't get me wrong it's still important) or how much money you make ( Still very very important) but this brother whom up until 4 days ago did not exist to me talked about my past and told me of my future.

Aight I know some of you are all like "What did he say Munish? I wanna know? Give me Facts!"
and there is at least 10 of you who don't want to believe this. Well to the people who don't want to believe me, it's all good.
To the people who want to know facts, maybe I will tell you a more in depth story in the future, but for all of you who Love me and know what kind of human being I am. Thanks. I know somewhere in your hearts you know that Munish is telling the truth.

Trust me I want to tell you more in depth tales about the Lotus Temple and the Golden temple. Swimming in the Ganges in the early morning in the mist, near the mountains with beautiful cranes. Glorious Elephants, meeting my Guru, but this seems more important.

I will say that aside from this greatness, I have absolutely loved spending time with my family, especially my Mom and Sister.
I love those Women so much. It's been over 6 years since I have spent this much time with my Mother and 8 years with my sister.
I don't want to sound like a broken record, no, wait, I do.
Love the Women in your life. I don't care if you think they are crazy or boring or whatever eventual lame excuse you come up with.
Love the Women in your Life. I have a Great Dad, a fantastic brother, but truly the two souls who play the part of my Mother and Sister are my core reason for who I am. These two Goddess make my life beautiful and someday there will be three.


The Jeans and T-Shirt Sage asks me who I think I am?
I sit trying to answer as if I may give him a wrong answer.
He smiles.
" I do not see you as you are." He says.
" I see you in your white robes, with your white beard, the way you will be."
I have seen this image my entire life, and it pops up clearly as he describes that image of me 30+ years from now. :)
"But first in.......( Sorry folks It would be great to tell all of you what he told be, but the point is to see it happen)

There is much more of my trip left heading to Chennai Mar 21. I have places to see, people to meet and creativity to harness.
Trust me I am exactly where I need to be right know. Away.
My Soul knows this.................but
Ahem, don't get shit twisted. I ll be back on that dance floor causin a stir, bumpin and grindin with some sexy girl.
Learn. Live. LOVE.

ps My bad for the spelling and grammar. I have been mostly speaking Hindi or Punjab for 6 weeks. Me English bad.

Moments form a book never Published part 2

I am lost in space...
Ok maybe I am not.
I am in fact exactly where I need to be drifting in space a soon to be extinguish star. When I was a human I never thought that even a star would have consciousness, then again as a human I thought animals and plants where inferior to me.
My shine is slowly fading, particles that once made up me are now drifting into space.
Pieces of me fall into other stars, suns, planets..galaxies .................cosmos.
Well I forget again? Well again at the last moment of physical life will everything comeback to me? Living it seems in any form becomes so important to any being.
I am a falling God. A blue being. In some solar systems I am worshipped as a God, in others I am nothing, but my energy belongs to every form, particles or molecule that I have come into contact with. For in these last moments I understand that I am the all.
Soon I will slip into the next unknown more enlightened that I was before.
A man is standing in a ocean, the sun shining brightly down upon him and angel comes running splashing next to him...it seems like eons ago.
I have burned so bright for millions of years, but time is no longer linear.
I live in die and the same time. Letting go and living in the moment that is what becomes of us all. I can feel the shift my existence here slowly ends on to new beginnings

" Daddy I want know about that star?"
" My lovely we will learn as many as we can, in fact we will start with the most important one. You."
"Hehe, you're silly Daddy."