That's right folks.
One night after some badass partying, on my drive home I started to recite this poem in my head and when I got home I remarkably wrote it all down. Munish Sharma PRESENTS!!!!!! (drum roll please)
The DRUNKIN Poem!!!!!
Drivin in your car holdin up your hand.
You're covering your face think of a man.
You don't understand
He doesn't comprehend
Your fight back tears
He's holdin other hands.
Your friends tell you innovative ways to diss em.
Your just sitten there thinkin how much you miss em.
You can't do this anymore
You gave her one chance
She took 4.
Face it brother your girls a whore.
You give her reason that she ignores.
You stand there foolish openin up her doors.
You could spend the rest of your life
Given her your core
She stand there heartless
Expecting more
Face it you can't do this anymore.
He needed space
She let him go
Now she dates men who turn out to be bores.
She'll git her thrills
They might suffice
But she knows it's him who will love her through the night.
You can't do this anymore
We got our stories
We want the best
But you got to be willing to separate your heart form your chest.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
For Her
I wanted to write something beautiful about you.
To honor you.
To have something in writing that the world could read.
So a man would feel threatened and love a woman better. So a woman could read these words and believe someday there will be words such as this for her.
My dear I could not paint a picture or string together two sentences.
I consulted books from Sufi's, recited Tagore and listen to Shakespeare.
Nothing, nothing would help me.
So I closed my eyes and thought of you.
My mind screamed, "Describe her beauty! Use the image in your minds eye and write it in to lines!"
My pen touches the paper.
Then my heart spoke firmly, " Hair, Eyes, Lips, Face, Body, all of this is ever changing. Speak from within me and tell her why she is Amazing!"
My heart began to entice me to write what I was feeling.
Still the pen would not kiss the paper because it felt misleading.
Then the Spark that I call my Soul began to bellow," Feelings are Fleeting your emotions rise and fall. Tell her what is constant. The rest is all none sense."
Then quietly with no more confusion this is what I penned
You are mine and I am yours.
Yes, I know it is simple. One sentence that took 3 seconds to scribble.
But my love in those seven words live my entire world.
You are mine and I am yours.
To honor you.
To have something in writing that the world could read.
So a man would feel threatened and love a woman better. So a woman could read these words and believe someday there will be words such as this for her.
My dear I could not paint a picture or string together two sentences.
I consulted books from Sufi's, recited Tagore and listen to Shakespeare.
Nothing, nothing would help me.
So I closed my eyes and thought of you.
My mind screamed, "Describe her beauty! Use the image in your minds eye and write it in to lines!"
My pen touches the paper.
Then my heart spoke firmly, " Hair, Eyes, Lips, Face, Body, all of this is ever changing. Speak from within me and tell her why she is Amazing!"
My heart began to entice me to write what I was feeling.
Still the pen would not kiss the paper because it felt misleading.
Then the Spark that I call my Soul began to bellow," Feelings are Fleeting your emotions rise and fall. Tell her what is constant. The rest is all none sense."
Then quietly with no more confusion this is what I penned
You are mine and I am yours.
Yes, I know it is simple. One sentence that took 3 seconds to scribble.
But my love in those seven words live my entire world.
You are mine and I am yours.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Dark hair
She made your hair form the night.
There is a part of the world that is cursed in light because she saw it fit that on your head it should sit. The night.
The sensual love creating hours, when man and woman both live in dreams.
So long and flowing making shapes of the ocean.
As a child I would fear the dark, but this dark has tugged at my heart.
True, I don't know were this will lead, but when that sun begins to set and the darkness takes of over. I wish to braid my fingers in it my lover.
Then comes that feeling that keeps lingering.
I hold it at bay tell the break of day, but when the sun begins to dip it comes back like a sickness.
Her Hair was made from the night, but it is I who will hold her tell the morning light.
There is a part of the world that is cursed in light because she saw it fit that on your head it should sit. The night.
The sensual love creating hours, when man and woman both live in dreams.
So long and flowing making shapes of the ocean.
As a child I would fear the dark, but this dark has tugged at my heart.
True, I don't know were this will lead, but when that sun begins to set and the darkness takes of over. I wish to braid my fingers in it my lover.
Then comes that feeling that keeps lingering.
I hold it at bay tell the break of day, but when the sun begins to dip it comes back like a sickness.
Her Hair was made from the night, but it is I who will hold her tell the morning light.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Ma
My chair rested against the wall exactly 8 feet from the TV.
She can't walk by without saying a word to me.
That's a mother, she need to be heard.
However on this day I have something to say.
"Mom I have to move...."
She sits down and processes what she heard, it's time to let go of her first little bird.
Time for her child to live his destiny. She can't always be there standing next to me.
"Go...but if you go don't comeback, and don't you ever look back"
Her words may have been simple, but the subtext could write volumes of literature.
This mother, my mother, like all mothers possesses a strength that you truly never understand.
It is true what they say it's a Woman who makes a Man.
She always knew should would have to let us go, but when even she didn't know.
A father will teach you right and wrong, but it's a mother who is there holding on.
A father will push you to be the best, and a mother will remind you that you are not like the rest.
A father will always have your back, but our Mother's are the once who help us on our path.
There is a reason our first word is Ma.
She is the one that makes you feel like you belong.
She can't walk by without saying a word to me.
That's a mother, she need to be heard.
However on this day I have something to say.
"Mom I have to move...."
She sits down and processes what she heard, it's time to let go of her first little bird.
Time for her child to live his destiny. She can't always be there standing next to me.
"Go...but if you go don't comeback, and don't you ever look back"
Her words may have been simple, but the subtext could write volumes of literature.
This mother, my mother, like all mothers possesses a strength that you truly never understand.
It is true what they say it's a Woman who makes a Man.
She always knew should would have to let us go, but when even she didn't know.
A father will teach you right and wrong, but it's a mother who is there holding on.
A father will push you to be the best, and a mother will remind you that you are not like the rest.
A father will always have your back, but our Mother's are the once who help us on our path.
There is a reason our first word is Ma.
She is the one that makes you feel like you belong.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Cheaters Never Win. But we arent' Playing sports.
I am a cheater.
I cheat on women.
See I can't lie anymore. All men Cheat.
At least this is what all women tell me. :)
An interesting conversation with a dear friend got me thinking. What's so bad about Cheating? or having affairs?
Cue montage of crying men, women and children, stuff being destroyed, fires, sad songs, and that horrible feeling that is having your world being destroyed.
K...maybe it is bad.
Still, why do we do it?
Apparently 85% of men will cheat on there significant other.
Most men can't keep a 85 average in school, but we are geniuses when it comes to cheating.
A thought
Don't Men cheat on women with other women? Hmmmmmmm (A question to my Gay brothers, When you are in a relationship and you "cheat" do you call it "cheating"? Or are you only having sex? Cuz as a strait man I always tell myself it's only sex, I don't love her.)
Ladies, did you think about what I just wrote before my Question to my Gay brothers?
Let me say it again.
Don't Men cheat on Women with other Women?
85% is a high number so you can't tell me that only 5% of women cheat. If that was the case, then they'd be professional cheaters. They would write on there T4, " I'm a professional Cheater, I ruin marriages, and relationships. I made 50,000 this year doing it, and here are my receipts."
Seriously, lets say that 50% of women cheat. That would mean that women cheat almost as much a men. They would have to or else how could a man ever actually cheat on a woman?
When a woman tells me that all men cheat or would cheat if given the chance. I always feel the need to say, "No you're wrong!"
But then a small voice that sound like and evil English noblemen goes "Quiet you fool, this will help you get away with it!!"
And it will.
I'm already expected to cheat. What chance do I have of being a faithful? Women want us to cheat...with them.
Picture this
Lounge.
Two men chatting.
Two women chatting at another table.
My friend notices them looking at us. After severe coxing from my homie, cuz I am shy, we go to chat.
We chat. I tell her I have a Girlfriend. We flirt. She is seeing someone. We flirt. We feel the Funk. We drink. We chat. I tell myself it's all good because I have a girlfriend that I love and I would NEVER cheat on her. She touches me on the shoulder. We talk about our relationships. We get close. we get closer. She goes I thought you said you have a girlfriend. I go yes. WE still end up kissing?
I am a jerk.
But she knew exactly what she was doing.
I am an asshole. I could have left.
But she knew EXACTLY what she was doing. (This woman could also have a boyfriend. I have seen this)
Now it was just a kiss, but it could have been more.
See what I did just there? Now if I truly had done that I am a jerk and asshole, but it takes two to tango. I have felt bad in the past, because some men lie, and many women never know the entire truth before it's to late. However I have no sympathy for the Woman who knows what she is doing. If a man gets no excuses neither should you.
No not all women do this because some women are very content with just knowing they can get a man.
How about the emotional cheaters?
"God, why do you get so mad when I mention him or her? we are just friends?"
Listen,if you have problems in your relationships, TALK TO EACH OTHER. I can not stress this. Twice in my life I have gotten close to women who have boyfriends, and both times it has been when there relationships have become stagnant and boring. No nothing physical ever happened, but they took affection from me.
Copious amounts of Affection.
"Munish how come there aren't more guys like you?" (Bull)
"Munish you are going to make some girl so happy!" (Yes, but I will also annoy her, bug her, and piss her off. I'm just new to you)
It doesn't bug me anymore, because I don't let it happen. I bite my tongue. Why?
Because it's none of my business.
Now I want to take the time to say. Everyone likes to be noticed. To be complemented. All women want to feel attractive. (If you have a wife or a girlfriend be happy when she gets hit on or complemented. It means you done did good.) Men also enjoy it when the get complemented. However, it's after the complements, where things get Grey.
I know what your thinking.
Munish you just think we are all bad people, why don't we not flirt either, coupe ourselves up in our living room with our companion and never go out. Not look at any men or women when we go out. Maybe we should open up a conversation by saying, " Hi, I'm married/in a relationship and I don't cheat. If you wish to pitch wooh at me please be advised that it is appreciated, but nothing will come of this."
Ummmmm to those people I say relax, and maybe you are a bad person. (jokes)
What I'm saying is that blame can not be put on one sex.
At least not anymore.
I haven't cheated on a girlfriend nor do I ever have any intention to. I especially will not take it up when I get married.
I don't hate men and women who cheat, but I do hate cheating.
I cheated on a test once, and I still remember it. I cheated because I didn't care and that's what gets me. That I didn't care. To me that's what cheating means. It means you don't care. You don't care about yourself or the person you are hurting. You can get a way with it. You can say you didn't know any better. You can do it once and realize it's a mistake and never do it again. But you do have to live with yourself, and contrary to what many people think this life is long. Yes you will be forgiven, and hopefully you will learn, but you will also have to live with it. The negative energy you bring into the world is also what you have to end up dealing with. So in the end I guess it is true, Cheaters never win.
I cheat on women.
See I can't lie anymore. All men Cheat.
At least this is what all women tell me. :)
An interesting conversation with a dear friend got me thinking. What's so bad about Cheating? or having affairs?
Cue montage of crying men, women and children, stuff being destroyed, fires, sad songs, and that horrible feeling that is having your world being destroyed.
K...maybe it is bad.
Still, why do we do it?
Apparently 85% of men will cheat on there significant other.
Most men can't keep a 85 average in school, but we are geniuses when it comes to cheating.
A thought
Don't Men cheat on women with other women? Hmmmmmmm (A question to my Gay brothers, When you are in a relationship and you "cheat" do you call it "cheating"? Or are you only having sex? Cuz as a strait man I always tell myself it's only sex, I don't love her.)
Ladies, did you think about what I just wrote before my Question to my Gay brothers?
Let me say it again.
Don't Men cheat on Women with other Women?
85% is a high number so you can't tell me that only 5% of women cheat. If that was the case, then they'd be professional cheaters. They would write on there T4, " I'm a professional Cheater, I ruin marriages, and relationships. I made 50,000 this year doing it, and here are my receipts."
Seriously, lets say that 50% of women cheat. That would mean that women cheat almost as much a men. They would have to or else how could a man ever actually cheat on a woman?
When a woman tells me that all men cheat or would cheat if given the chance. I always feel the need to say, "No you're wrong!"
But then a small voice that sound like and evil English noblemen goes "Quiet you fool, this will help you get away with it!!"
And it will.
I'm already expected to cheat. What chance do I have of being a faithful? Women want us to cheat...with them.
Picture this
Lounge.
Two men chatting.
Two women chatting at another table.
My friend notices them looking at us. After severe coxing from my homie, cuz I am shy, we go to chat.
We chat. I tell her I have a Girlfriend. We flirt. She is seeing someone. We flirt. We feel the Funk. We drink. We chat. I tell myself it's all good because I have a girlfriend that I love and I would NEVER cheat on her. She touches me on the shoulder. We talk about our relationships. We get close. we get closer. She goes I thought you said you have a girlfriend. I go yes. WE still end up kissing?
I am a jerk.
But she knew exactly what she was doing.
I am an asshole. I could have left.
But she knew EXACTLY what she was doing. (This woman could also have a boyfriend. I have seen this)
Now it was just a kiss, but it could have been more.
See what I did just there? Now if I truly had done that I am a jerk and asshole, but it takes two to tango. I have felt bad in the past, because some men lie, and many women never know the entire truth before it's to late. However I have no sympathy for the Woman who knows what she is doing. If a man gets no excuses neither should you.
No not all women do this because some women are very content with just knowing they can get a man.
How about the emotional cheaters?
"God, why do you get so mad when I mention him or her? we are just friends?"
Listen,if you have problems in your relationships, TALK TO EACH OTHER. I can not stress this. Twice in my life I have gotten close to women who have boyfriends, and both times it has been when there relationships have become stagnant and boring. No nothing physical ever happened, but they took affection from me.
Copious amounts of Affection.
"Munish how come there aren't more guys like you?" (Bull)
"Munish you are going to make some girl so happy!" (Yes, but I will also annoy her, bug her, and piss her off. I'm just new to you)
It doesn't bug me anymore, because I don't let it happen. I bite my tongue. Why?
Because it's none of my business.
Now I want to take the time to say. Everyone likes to be noticed. To be complemented. All women want to feel attractive. (If you have a wife or a girlfriend be happy when she gets hit on or complemented. It means you done did good.) Men also enjoy it when the get complemented. However, it's after the complements, where things get Grey.
I know what your thinking.
Munish you just think we are all bad people, why don't we not flirt either, coupe ourselves up in our living room with our companion and never go out. Not look at any men or women when we go out. Maybe we should open up a conversation by saying, " Hi, I'm married/in a relationship and I don't cheat. If you wish to pitch wooh at me please be advised that it is appreciated, but nothing will come of this."
Ummmmm to those people I say relax, and maybe you are a bad person. (jokes)
What I'm saying is that blame can not be put on one sex.
At least not anymore.
I haven't cheated on a girlfriend nor do I ever have any intention to. I especially will not take it up when I get married.
I don't hate men and women who cheat, but I do hate cheating.
I cheated on a test once, and I still remember it. I cheated because I didn't care and that's what gets me. That I didn't care. To me that's what cheating means. It means you don't care. You don't care about yourself or the person you are hurting. You can get a way with it. You can say you didn't know any better. You can do it once and realize it's a mistake and never do it again. But you do have to live with yourself, and contrary to what many people think this life is long. Yes you will be forgiven, and hopefully you will learn, but you will also have to live with it. The negative energy you bring into the world is also what you have to end up dealing with. So in the end I guess it is true, Cheaters never win.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
A step forward
I was walking home the other day from a friends apartment, and while I was walking I started to focus on my heart. When I would think of my friend I realized that I love them.
Why?
My heart would feel warm and if you like even fuzzy.
A burst of energy surged threw my body.
Basically I felt real good.
It got me thinking.
Maybe just maybe I love a lot more people then I lead myself to believe. Why is that?
Why don't I think I can love a lot of people?
Simple, I don't think I have a lot of love to give.
I know it sounds negative doesn't it?
However, I mean more in a Great love sort of way.
Maybe its the copious amounts of movies I have watched, or my own romantic beating heart, but I have always believed that I would love one woman and give her all my love.
That got me thinking.
IF I believe I will give one person all my love, that must mean I have a beginning and ending to my love?
Then I thought, " But Munish isn't love eternal? If that's the case why can't I love more then one person?"
No I don't mean I am some free loving giving hippy that loves everyone, and everything, but at the same time that's exactly what I mean.
Trust me it's so simple that's its complicated.
So I started to challenge myself and my beliefs in love as I walked down Granville to Broadway.
I started to think about my family and how much I love them, and how nobody can compare to them and then I thought, "Wait am I just saying that because I am afraid?"
Could it be that I love others as much as my Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, Aunties, Uncles etc, or worse love them more?
The answer was Maybe.
Maybe I love Skylar Osborne just as much because she was the only light I had in my life the first Dark days in Vancouver?
Maybe I love Leena Manro as much because like an Angel she saved me from my self torturing ways.
Maybe I love Aideen Zareh as much because he looked a pessimistic, self loathing 15 year old me straight in the eye and said, " Munish be you, and I promise one day you will have everything you need, even if it is to be cool".
Trust me the list started to get longer.
So why do I think I need to love one person the most?
Because I want them to feel special.
Of course this love is that Love story kind of love.
To be honest I have not loved enough women, because my love for Romance has made me believe that When Munish falls in Love and is loved back people will tell stories about it.
LOL
Sounds like a movie, but you all want that. All of us just have a different version of it.
2 I'm being honest. I love two women. I should say loved, but if love is truly everlasting then I still must love them.
Question
If you knew that a person from a previous relationships still loved you, would that make you feel good? Doesn't that tell you that you are worth loving?
Don't jump down the rabbit hole now. I didn't say want you, have sex with you, is missing you or anything else we can get are warped ego to think of.
Only love.
That they have love for you in there heart and that's it. Shouldn't you be happy?
K, back to me.
Why do I or did I think that Loving more then one Woman is so sad?
We all want that Great Love. Yes you do.
You want a man that will fulfill your every need.
You want a woman that is always there for you no matter what
And you want it to be one person.
When I talk to people about past Love I can always feel there heart sink a little because it didn't work out, or they aren't together. Of course being a Empathic person I could feel there pain or disappointment and in some cases both.
So when I jumped on the 99 B-line on Broadway I thought, " Isn't that kind of stupid?"
I should be happy I have loved, and that I will love again. Not throw a small pity party when I think about it.
If I am always getting better so should my capacity to love. So dwelling on Love of the past only stops us from being a better lover in the future.
I know, by the time I got on to Main street I was confused.
Munish what are you trying to tell yourself?
Maybe some of us are meant to Love one companion
Maybe some of us Love one person but will end up being with another person.
Maybe it's good to Love many people. Why can't we have many best friends? Why do we end up going I can't believe I loved you, when things get dark?
Maybe I should stop thinking how my first kiss was with this person or my most romantic moment was with that person.
Maybe I should think of the Many kisses to come, appreciate the ones that have looked me in the eye and said I love you.
Maybe the Great Love that we all search for is actually the culmination of All the love we offer in the world, and if we stopped worrying that we don't have enough love to give, or won't have some one to love us. We will realize we should be the one thing we need in this life.
Love.
Key in the lock. Open the door, and go to bed.
Time to start a new day.
M Sharma
Why?
My heart would feel warm and if you like even fuzzy.
A burst of energy surged threw my body.
Basically I felt real good.
It got me thinking.
Maybe just maybe I love a lot more people then I lead myself to believe. Why is that?
Why don't I think I can love a lot of people?
Simple, I don't think I have a lot of love to give.
I know it sounds negative doesn't it?
However, I mean more in a Great love sort of way.
Maybe its the copious amounts of movies I have watched, or my own romantic beating heart, but I have always believed that I would love one woman and give her all my love.
That got me thinking.
IF I believe I will give one person all my love, that must mean I have a beginning and ending to my love?
Then I thought, " But Munish isn't love eternal? If that's the case why can't I love more then one person?"
No I don't mean I am some free loving giving hippy that loves everyone, and everything, but at the same time that's exactly what I mean.
Trust me it's so simple that's its complicated.
So I started to challenge myself and my beliefs in love as I walked down Granville to Broadway.
I started to think about my family and how much I love them, and how nobody can compare to them and then I thought, "Wait am I just saying that because I am afraid?"
Could it be that I love others as much as my Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, Aunties, Uncles etc, or worse love them more?
The answer was Maybe.
Maybe I love Skylar Osborne just as much because she was the only light I had in my life the first Dark days in Vancouver?
Maybe I love Leena Manro as much because like an Angel she saved me from my self torturing ways.
Maybe I love Aideen Zareh as much because he looked a pessimistic, self loathing 15 year old me straight in the eye and said, " Munish be you, and I promise one day you will have everything you need, even if it is to be cool".
Trust me the list started to get longer.
So why do I think I need to love one person the most?
Because I want them to feel special.
Of course this love is that Love story kind of love.
To be honest I have not loved enough women, because my love for Romance has made me believe that When Munish falls in Love and is loved back people will tell stories about it.
LOL
Sounds like a movie, but you all want that. All of us just have a different version of it.
2 I'm being honest. I love two women. I should say loved, but if love is truly everlasting then I still must love them.
Question
If you knew that a person from a previous relationships still loved you, would that make you feel good? Doesn't that tell you that you are worth loving?
Don't jump down the rabbit hole now. I didn't say want you, have sex with you, is missing you or anything else we can get are warped ego to think of.
Only love.
That they have love for you in there heart and that's it. Shouldn't you be happy?
K, back to me.
Why do I or did I think that Loving more then one Woman is so sad?
We all want that Great Love. Yes you do.
You want a man that will fulfill your every need.
You want a woman that is always there for you no matter what
And you want it to be one person.
When I talk to people about past Love I can always feel there heart sink a little because it didn't work out, or they aren't together. Of course being a Empathic person I could feel there pain or disappointment and in some cases both.
So when I jumped on the 99 B-line on Broadway I thought, " Isn't that kind of stupid?"
I should be happy I have loved, and that I will love again. Not throw a small pity party when I think about it.
If I am always getting better so should my capacity to love. So dwelling on Love of the past only stops us from being a better lover in the future.
I know, by the time I got on to Main street I was confused.
Munish what are you trying to tell yourself?
Maybe some of us are meant to Love one companion
Maybe some of us Love one person but will end up being with another person.
Maybe it's good to Love many people. Why can't we have many best friends? Why do we end up going I can't believe I loved you, when things get dark?
Maybe I should stop thinking how my first kiss was with this person or my most romantic moment was with that person.
Maybe I should think of the Many kisses to come, appreciate the ones that have looked me in the eye and said I love you.
Maybe the Great Love that we all search for is actually the culmination of All the love we offer in the world, and if we stopped worrying that we don't have enough love to give, or won't have some one to love us. We will realize we should be the one thing we need in this life.
Love.
Key in the lock. Open the door, and go to bed.
Time to start a new day.
M Sharma
Monday, January 24, 2011
Airport blues
The most painful thing I have encountered in the past 4 years is saying goodbye to my parents, and arriving in Vancouver with no one there to greet me. Sure I have traveled places from Vancouver comeback and have had no problem living my life.
However, when I go home to Regina and comeback to my new home in Vancouver it is the only time when I feel that Vancouver still isn't home yet. Maybe someday soon it will feel like home fully, maybe in a few years visiting my parents won't have to be a once or twice kind of thing, or maybe I should stop being a baby. Honestly all those "maybes" I have just wrote are all true.
Still....it would be nice to arrive at YVR after spending a full week around people who love me unconditionally and have someone smiling happy to see me.
Trust me I don't think this is to much to ask, nor do I think it will never happen, but I would like it to happen sooner rather then later.
However, when I go home to Regina and comeback to my new home in Vancouver it is the only time when I feel that Vancouver still isn't home yet. Maybe someday soon it will feel like home fully, maybe in a few years visiting my parents won't have to be a once or twice kind of thing, or maybe I should stop being a baby. Honestly all those "maybes" I have just wrote are all true.
Still....it would be nice to arrive at YVR after spending a full week around people who love me unconditionally and have someone smiling happy to see me.
Trust me I don't think this is to much to ask, nor do I think it will never happen, but I would like it to happen sooner rather then later.
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