Regina, and Brothers.

Hot.
In the dead of winter I am thinking about Heat.
I find that I narrate to myself when I am thinking, as if I am telling a story to someone. I was standing looking at a tree trying to be in complete stillness, and I started to Narrate that I am standing looking at a tree trying to be in complete stillness. I am aware that my life is a story. Your life is great story too!

Regina loves me.
It was my Ego that hated Regina.
I liken my Relationship to Regina to that of a Girlfreind who did not appreciate me.
As a young man I always felt that no matter what I did here, nobody would care.
I created my own Suffering.
I know this now
I personally believe Regina changed when Munish changed.
This city grew as I grew
I moved and away and the city began to move, move in shape, in success, in art.
In short my Girlfriend did appreciate me. I did not appreciate me and I lived that.
I will not live in Regina but I do finally see that there is a place for me in Regina.
A being creates his place of belonging, but they must see it in themselves first.
I did not belong here because I did not want to belong here.
I understood on a very elementry level about my destiny, but I used it as a crouch to make myself feel unwanted.
" Regina is so lame" "It's Regina, what did you expect" and other negative and hurtful sentence that you can construct of a city that gave me protection, gave my family a life, gave me strength and brothers and sisters.
Why do we have to get to a point where we take things for granted? Is it truly the only way to expand our minds?
I have been learning to be ever present in the moments I live. To not look forward to something, because If end up looking forward to something forever and it won't come.
I love you Regina, and we are cool. Munish will not speak to you in the negative. You always gave to me and I looked at what I didn't have.
Even now you have helped to heal me. Still learning, still learning

Brothers
My Brothers live in Regina
Now I have many Brothers in Van (Bakra boys, the QG's)but my birth brothers live in Regina (JB crew, Superfriends). I love them all, but hanging out with Rajnish, Aideen, Shaheen and Mike is something else. If I did not have a Brother like Raj I would not be a good Brother. I know that without him I would probably be socially awkward, way to damn serious and simply not Munish. He is the prototype to all my friends. All of my brothers have some aspect of Rajnish or we would not be freinds. I bounce things off Raj because his opinion matter to me. He at times is the complete opposite of me when it comes to a desicion or opinion, which helps me see everything better. Simply knowing I am his brother is one of the biggest blessing in my life.

Mike made Munish funny, it was Mike who taught me to be funny. When we are together we are our own show. Mike is the reason I have no problem being "And Munish" to any sceniro, because he taught me I can complete any equation.

Aideen and Shaheen made me better. To this day they make me better.
Funny story
When Aideen and I where in Grade 9 we weren't allowed in our own Frosh party.(A party thrown by the grade 12's for the grade 9's.)
I remember being so hurt. Aideen didn't think two thought about it, he was like, "Lets go do our own thing."
I remember telling him that is was unfair and mean.
Aideen quickly stopped turned around and said, " Munish doing you want to be cool and Poplular?"
I went, " I don't know."
" Answer me" he said.
I remember just collapsing and say, " Yes, I wanna be cool and popular. I want people to like me!"
Without a moments hesitation he looked at me and said, " Then be you Munish.
Don't care what people think, don't try to be what you think other people think you should be. Just be you. And I promise you if you do that everyone is going to like you."
Game changer. Life changer.
Shaheen is my older brother. I can say he is the older brother I never had, but I do have him. Like an older brother he gives me advise, he doesn't need to speak with me all the time, but his always there. A lot of people at times don't understand why Aideen and Shaheen are a cut above the rest. It's because they give and don't ask for anything back. I don't owe them anything. No one is better then anyone ( Well Aideen would say he is) but the point is that we are together. They will not ask for a Thank you and in fact don't need me to say anything about them and yet they will always be there for me. It is because of them that I have met so many other brothers. All these Souls are walking defintions of what a best friend should be and because of that I have been able to meet and connect with so many other brothers of the same cloth.

Alright that's enough out of me. No more Blogging for a while but you will hear from me. People will Miss Munish, and Munish will miss people. Still we all know, no one is far from a loved one. Ask your heart and soul.
P.S. IF anyone women reads this and asks, What about Women Munish?" Please look at almost EVERY BLOG I HAVE WRITTEN.
Munish understands the importance of a Goddess. Still Learning still learning :)